Alive

Feeling like I’m skimming a pool with a net

a dead bug here

a soaked rat there

a floating spider

a thousand tabs open in my head

to songs without names

to memories of boasting

of falling

of yelling

of crying

when I want to close them all

and throw down the net

and run to the lake and dive in

with goggles on

to see all the creatures who are still alive.